Take the raw pain
And rub it into your face until your skin bleeds
Until it is as disfigured as your heart
as your confidence
Do this so that you remember always
Why you gaze at the world from a distance
Hiding in sight behind glass doors.
Save your tears, every drop you drown in
and every scream that you exhale - soundless with anguish
Store them away,
so that one day
you can throw out the last of your hope, joy & pain
together, all at once.
There is peace in nothingness
Nothing is all that is yours