The beatings stop when I say so, not when you decide itís time.
I say now is the time
Not after you hit me again and offer your apology with a big bag from Tiffanyís.
Not the next time I call off work because ďI hurt myself exercisingĒ again.
Not when Iím at the M.A.C counter restocking on concealed to cover up your evidence of ďloveĒ.
And not while Iím holding ice on the busted lip ďI made youĒ give me.
The beatings stop when I say so, not when you decide itís so.
I say it stops now, not later.
Not later, after the ringing in my ear, from you slapping me so hard finally stops.
Not later, when I have to throw away another blouse, because itís splattered with blood.
Not later, when I have to miss another family get-together,
because the swelling hasnít gone down, yet.
The hitting stops when I decide, not when you get tired of it.
Not when you promise it wonít happen again, again.
Not when you make excuses for not getting help, because you donít think you need any.
IT STOPS- TODAY!
Not the day Iím riding handcuffed in the back of an Atlanta Metro squad car.
Not the day the judge is reading charges of murder against me,
and setting bail for an amount I canít afford,
While Iím standing there wondering how I let this happen.
Not the day I have to make a collect call to my mother, trying to find the answer to,
ďwhy didnít you just leaveĒ?
IT STOPS TODAY!
Not the day youíre laying face down on the ground being read your rights.
Not the day the neighbors are standing around outside in disbelief.
Not the day my family and friends have to speak of me in past tense.
The beatings stop when I say so. Not when you decide itís time.
I say the beatings stop not soon,
Now only does it stop today,
Iíve decided the beatings stops not now, but RIGHT NOW!