I can’t seem to grasp, 
Can’t fully understand.
But it doesn’t change the obvious.

Only a key to your re-existence, 
Can unlock by broken heart,
And dry these constant invisible tears I cry.

I’ve tried replaying the scene in my own shoes.
I can’t imagine your struggle for life. 
But if I could rewind time,
I would take that dreary step for you,
And leave you here to raise your babies.

That bastard deserves the worst.
Life imprisonment isn’t long enough
And if I were there, I’d be where he is,
And you’d be free to excel.

Spiritually speaking, you are free
But without my ill knowledge off seeing you Face to face
It all seems hopeless.

Every moment of my life, 
The scar inflames constant pain.
Some say that’s not safe.
But those are the ones who haven’t 
Walked the walk.
I remember being in their position.

As I reminisce the finals,
I saw a piece of me lying there with you.
I then knew that I was not the same.
And that certain elements of my being, 
had been destroyed by your immediate absence.

Each breath I take, is blessed.
But in reality, I realize that 
Until I see you again,
The agony, of trying to cope, 
Leaves me slowly dying a long death.

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Special Blessings and Dedication
To my Baby Sister. 1964 - 1997 I Miss You.