I sit at home
complacent in my thought
when with life I fought
I snorted coke, sold dope
and all around just could not cope
I broke all the rules
I was the most serious of fools
My life centered around making dough
Be it man, woman, friend or foe
From whom, didn't matter,
as long as my pockets grew fatter
Life on the installment plan
In for a year, out for a month.
The more God chased, the more I ran
But God has a way of bringing
us all to our knees
No matter our status
or level of degrees
I have only myself to blame
but sure enuff, my day came
15 to Life,
say goodbye to your wife
Throw the keys away
and lock the door
You ain't never
gonna see the street no more
A'int it a shame and a pain
when you can't see past the rain
Sun don't shine nowhere in here
And you living in constant fear
Gotta be a man, gotta stand tall
If you don't, you gonna fall
But late at night alone in your cell
you realize, youré on a ride through hell
Momma can't help you, nothing daddy can do
The guards will just as soon, stomp on you
and your girl is with someone new
now, who can you turn too?
Alone, in the still quiet of the night
With your personal demons you fight
In the deepest recesses of your frozen heart
walls begin to come down, barriers melt,
your mind screams as the chains come apart
In your solitude, you hear HIS voice:
"I SHALL NEVER LEAVE YOU
I AM CLOSER TO YOU
THAN YOUR JUGULAR VEIN".
"I hear you, Lord, what
shall I do to be saved?"
HE says nothing more.
But deep in your soul,
you know what He wants.
"This is dedicated to my spiritual brother,
who is going through the above experience
which I have gone through. I want him to
know that I share his experience and
we are ONE"