Sometimes it's hard to stop and smell the roses
When the world seems to be spinning out of control
We get caught up in the day to day "do this and do that's"
We lose sight of everything else, even those close to our souls.
I realize that I have been out of touch with you
But trust me there was no ill-will nor lack of knowing that you exist
But like the rest of the world out here, it's been about the game
Of surviving, living, keeping sane in an insane world
Trying my best to hold on through life's turns and often torrential twists.
I realize that you are in a world that is closed off from the rest
And you feel as though you have been abandoned, and left on the door step
And though I try to understand your inner turmoil and unrest
Please understand that with every breath and every step
That I am just trying to walk the earth while there is still an earth left.
If there was a way for me to regain all the years you and I have lost
I would definitely wish upon that very star, in hopes that wish could be granted.
Perhaps we wouldn't be having a conversation like this
In which you feel dissed or dismissed.
Perhaps it would be easier to include you and not elude you, or exclude
You from my day to day existence.
Again, I don't mean to slight you on purpose or cause you any disservice
I do recognize that you are a part of my existence no matter how much I may
Want to resist that at times.
Contrary to what you may believe, my heart often bleeds, that you are
Not in my world the way it was intended.
But time will mend it…mend all opens wounds.
You are my father, and although you feel as though I don't care
And that I don't share your feelings of love.
That would be an injustice to accuse me of that crime.
For I have loved you and have tried to stand by you – and have proven that love
Over the course of time
So if you check within you heart, deep within the crevices of your soul
You should find comfort and solace—and feel assured that.
You are my father – there's only one of you.
And despite what may have past --- I do love you.