I have loved you from afar for years.
I have watched many come and go.
I have listened to you tell me what was “wrong” with them
while I secretly made metal notes so I could be perfect for you.
I have kept others at arms length so I could easily
let go when you finally woke up.
I have changed my hair and put on dresses so that you would realize
I was more than just one of the guys.
I have forced my femininity on you and just when we were almost there,
there was no follow through.
I have denied and denied to people who saw what you couldn’t.
I have argued, fought and ended my relationship with you
just for us to be right back where we left off the next day.
I have given of myself to you more than anybody
only to realize that I not perfect for you.
And now I know I never will be because you have not loved me from afar for years.